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Escape

2010-11-16T00:36:00.003+08:00

How many days it takes
To forget about the stars that shine
And how many nights will go by
Before I give up on life

Day passes me by
But your scent remains on mine
Each day a little part of me dies
Giving up hope and everything I called life

Maybe tonight, just tonight
I will sing you a lullaby
With our arms wrapped tight
We’ll surrender our souls and end this fight

My life

2010-11-15T00:22:00.003+08:00

It used to be me alone and the world,
And the world is a ~~fucked up~~ lonely place.

Where all my dreams are far away,
And nothing right seems right anyway.

Without you life is just time upon time,
And without meaning, we're only living to die.

THE NEXT BIG THING IS UP!!

2010-03-29T00:27:00.009+08:00

Spent 2 weeks to full design of the webpage. My baby is finally up and running. All items posted are not made by me of course. I'm just responsible for the web layout and designs. Click the image link to find out more!!

What I learn during my stay in France

2009-06-16T04:50:00.004+08:00

There is somthing that only the US ASD keyboard can do and no other keyboard can. Wanna know what is it?

This...

!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!@#$%^&*&^%$#@!@#$%^

If you have any other european based keyboard(dunno what you call it), try typing the above line, it'll take you forever to find the right key. hehe..

I guess that explains why europeans curse less than americans. Or maybe not? haha..

ps: in syok sendiri mood cuz somebody's going home soon!!

Eurobot 2009, La Ferte Bernard

2009-06-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

An outdated post it is. Supposed to post this up two weeks back, but I got too caught up with work. Anyway, here it is. =)

So two weekends ago, I was at La Ferte Bernard, for a robotics competition called EUROBOT. UTP started participating last year, when I was the main programmer. It was held in Germany, and this it's in France.

So I went as a supporter for my Uni as well as for Malaysia. However, I ended up being the programmer again. Did not sleep for a night just to program the monster for the next round of competition.

And this is the competition hall. There were 5 tables in total so 5 games can run consecutively. Too bad I didn't get any pictures of me when I was in the game.

We started off pretty badly, none of our robots managed to score. But I'm glad that the last few rounds, we manage to get some points.

And our final ranking is at 27th and 29th(since we sent two teams), out of 50 european teams. Consider that as quite an accomplishment, since its only our second participation, and its against the europeans! =)

Also managed to spend some time hanging around in the city centre. Another old town just like Heidelberg, Germany where Eurobot was held last year. It's quite pretty actually but I just don't have the oohm to take more pictures after all the programming and no sleeping. =(

Last picture of us for the day.

I'm actually in quite an emo state now, so, gonna go off...

Bon Weekend!

Daily Dosage

2009-05-21T11:03:00.002+08:00

I started my day twitting..

10:30 Finally my earliest day to office in this month, still i'm the latest compared the the others. ahahhahaha...pathetic..
12:51 Tomorrow going to support our utp(malaysian) team in eurobot in France!!
12:57 sien lar.. stuck with work.. dunno how to do...
15:40 bosan kat opis.. camne ni???
15:48 Biting on the earphone that comes all the way from Rome...
17:46 home!!! bon weekend!!

And it ended with you following me tweet!

Daily Dosage

2009-05-20T11:03:00.002+08:00

I started my day twitting..

10:45 Back in office.. just registered for controls.. And power.. haha.. will need to drop one later.
11:47 mcm mane la?? hotel sume fully booked!! x jadi p ke ni?? susah tol..
13:12 Lunch time over.. back to my little desk..
14:45 Just not doing anything not because I dont want to but because I dont know how to. Or maybe I just don't want to after all..
17:20 Finally bought my train ticket, its about 100euro in total. how come train tickets here so expensive one????
18:22 There's a bug in my program but I cant find it!! Sometimes I just hate programming.
20:33 Just back from swimming. Really exhausting.. I need to exercise more. Stamina is shitting me out.
23:43 Just sent n email to ESU and SIIP regarding allowance claim which is always late for one and a half months.Hopefully will get good news!
00:49 supper = pain chocola + chaud chocola
02:08 I swam for 13x25m=325m today.. After five months of nada exercise. I feel refreshed, and exhausted..

And it ended with you following me tweet!

Don't Spray Spray a!!

2009-05-19T05:10:00.000+08:00

Don't play play a, my pray pray works one a...

Well, I guess my wish came true. It's a sunny day again. So sunny that it brings me back to malaysia. Just for a bit though and I quickly rub that thought off as I pull my jacket over to shield myself from the scorching wind.

Yeah I chose to exxagerate a little here by choosing the word "scorching", but it is really strong and they never seems to go out of breathe blowing at you, all day long..

And you see that picture above? It's taken in Barcelona. One thing you notice about Barcelona is their mural painting are of the top notch. Every inch of wall is covered with random drawings.

Phone booths, stores, underground tunnels, even on vehicles. So much so that they wouldn't need to paint a newly built wall i guess, since it's gonna be painted by someone with something at some point of time.

Later on, I found out why. There was some event going on at the park not far from the Arc of Triumph, and they actually set up some boards in the park, for people to paint on.

Practise makes perfect huh?

And even little spider boy decided to join in the fun.

I just can tell that he's a poser!

Next thing I know..

Don't spray spray a, I spray spray you then you know!!

Daily Dosage

2009-05-19T05:01:00.001+08:00

I started my day twitting..

12:49 Just reached office. Heck, my dekstop is missing, even the mouse is gone..
15:27 Fixing virus on my office lappie... damn..bloody trojan
16:20 I think i killed it!!
17:11 xde duit camne nak gi eurobot nih??
19:41 Control system or power system? or Computer system?? what should i major in?? Someone help me pls..
20:07 Mathias gave me some lavender today. I just realized they smell so good... naturally..

And it ended with you following me tweet!

Daily Dosage

2009-05-18T05:00:00.001+08:00

I started my day twitting..

00:58 Back to the world of utopia i guess..
12:12 Rise n shine.. someone spamming my chatterbox..
12:23 Anyone have a torrent link for angels and demons??
14:54 Contemplating if I should walk to mcd, or cook myself some sausages??
16:13 Finally I decided to go to McD!!Took me more than an hour to decide. haha..What an ass I am!
19:25 Just gave myself a hair cut, think it looks good!!
21:54 There's nothing here worth saving, there's no one here at all. Is there any kind of love that will break our fall?

And it ended with you following me tweet!

I was born in Rain

2009-05-18T03:55:00.005+08:00

Someday it just feels like everything is silent. Even the pelting raindrops on my balcony seems so subtle that it blends into the background. It's been rainy lately. And rainy days stir up emotions.

I didn't know spring is a season of rain. Cause spring is always pictured with blooming flowers and sunshine. With joyful people in shorts and tshirts hanging around in the park. Lying on the green grass sun bathing while reading a novel. Something very close to the picture of summer time.

Yet, it has been raining continuously for a whole long week. I love the rain though. Someone said the rain reminds her of peace and serenity. Maybe what she meant was the calmness after the rain though. As much as I wanted to, I did not question her further since it would make me look like a perfect idiot who spoils the mood at that time.

But some time after I agree with her. When it rains, everything stops. The streets are almost empty. With only people hurrying through to shelter with their hands sheltering their pathetic head, as if it would do any good. Anyhow, everyone will be in their own world minding their own business.

Definitely, you'll not see anyone hanging around chatting and laughing away like they always do in sunny days. That means serenity for me who's looking down from my balcony.

Sometimes, I love the rain so much that I even believe that I was somehow related to water. Maybe my previous life was a water creature. Or maybe while my mom was giving birth to me, she's underwater. But neither is true though.

I believed it so much that somehow I think I do better in basketball under the rain. Well, I used to play the game when I was in form 1 and 2. And on some days, the sky just wish to pour on us and we're too young to fear the rain. So after winning a game or two under the rain, I started having this weird thought. I know, I'm a weirdo.

However, on an unrelated note, I did kiss a girl in the rain before. Just trying to imitate. You know how in movies, the man always get to kiss the woman he loves in the rain, and its somehow romantic I assume. On another occasion, I kissed a girl underwater. Well, it's.. hmm.. just wet. Lol..

Anyway, I definitely love the rain. But it's getting too much for me to handle since rain often follows up with emoness which subtlely turns into depressions. So perhaps, a sunny day would do me good tomorrow.

If Everything Comes Free

2009-05-17T20:13:00.006+08:00

Note: Freebies for Coldplay Fans

Unrelated to Coldplay, this story started few years back when a friend of mine turn up at my front gate asking me to tag along. Kinda used to his randomness, I hopped in without a doubt, and the next thing I know, I'm at the Toto counter buying lotteries.

The thing is, Toto and Magnum shops are kinda near to my house. So at times, when this friend of mine goes to buy a ticket, he would drop by my house 1st and insist that I follow along. You know, you just feel better to have somebody accompany you when you do something silly I guess. And of course, I'll end up betting my money on that stupid 4 numbers too.

He said, buying lotteries is like buying hope which is quite true I guess. Cause every weekend, you'll be sitting in front of your computer, checking for the night release of the results, hoping that you'll strike some.

But the truth is, I don't really believe in lotteries, not because I don't want to, but its just that I cant picture myself winning lotteries. And I always think that if you can't imagine it in your mind, it'll never happen to you. So there goes.

Once, we were at the counter again, and he bought some as usual, but instead, never believing in my own luck, I decided to drop that RM1 into the charity box right in front of the shop. That's the last time I bought any.

Then yesterday, I got news from him,

He strike 1st price. Turned RM1 into 6k. If only, i was back in Kepong and he ask me to tag along before he buys the number, maybe..

I guess, it'll still never happen to me.

Daily Dosage

2009-05-17T05:01:00.003+08:00

I started my day twitting..

01:43 Still not asleep..
02:41 twitpic.com/596c4 - Pisa is in my hands!!
03:09 I actually forgot about eating my dinner..
10:46 Just woke up and my back ache is killing me!!
12:32 eating tomates cerise=cherry tomato!!
15:22 Wow!! My buddy won lottery!!! 1st Price!!!!!!!!! Jaws drop!!!
15:52 Cooking lunch..
17:17 Reading Doraemon manga.. My childhood memories..
20:38 Fell asleep and when i woke up, 3 hours flew pass me.
22:22 Coldplay, ciggarettes and alcohols..

And it ended with you following me tweet!

Daily Dosage

2009-05-16T06:02:00.008+08:00

I started my day twitting..

16:02 Gonna start using twitter more frequent now
17:10 Another boring weekend approaching..
18:00 I bought a rack of egg without noticing one of it cracked...
23:30 Embedding twitter on bloggie..

And it ended with you following me tweet!

Son Sad

2009-05-14T05:57:00.007+08:00

The week after I came back from Barcelona and Rome, it happens that I did not turn up for work on Thursday, and Friday was a holiday following the weekend.

So I spent 4 days sitting alone in my apartment, basically doing nothing.It's really a dramatic turn for me right from all the hoo-haa's from the trip into a dead lonely world of me and my room.

Facing the four walls, I did nothing other than staring at the eye piercing laptop screen. Yes, it pierce when you stare at it and nothing else for four consecutive days.

I downed a bottle of wine, go on apple diet, basically ate about 15 apples over the weekend and only had a proper meal twice in four days. Just too reluctant to cook.

At the end of the four days, it struck my mind that I haven't speak at all to a real person for four days excluding chatting online(which is virtual). That's the first time in my life I believe.

Every now and then, I take a break to get some fresh air at the little balcony. Other than the birds in the day, and cats scouting for its prey at night, not a single living soul is here.

Guess everyone here except me just turns out to have a real home to go back to after a long week's work and studies.

I have one too I said to myself, I just need to be patient, and wait a little while more. Just a bit more. I'll be fine.

Miss you all.

A Sickening News

2009-05-07T22:34:00.005+08:00

Just learn that a buddy of mine is currently undergoing some depressing love consequences. It really saddens me to see friends around me fall for this sick joke over again.

And it reminds me of something I've written some long time ago.

Written on 16/03/08
The dawn hurts more than night i just realize
U poisoned me with all your love n pass me by
Waking up with the scent of your skin on mine
The hugs kisses n love making mornings rewind

Forget bout the cup cakes n candle lights
I ain't falling for another crafted lie
Staring at the morning rain outside
Tell me how am i gonna wake up fine

No matter what it is, stay strong and do know that we are all here supporting you.

My 1st Vid: Sunrise-Balcony

2009-05-07T06:51:00.005+08:00

Where's the sunrise you ask??

I was actually thinking of shooting the sunrise from my balcony the other day, when I woke up at 5am. However, my camera's battery died and after I recharged I never get to see the sun rise again.

Why? Cause anyone who knows me a bit will realize that the first view of the mighty sun for me would be when it is burning hot hanging right above my head. That's basically the time I rise and shine.

Moreover, it's spring now and the sun rises before 5am, how crazy is that?

So instead of the sunrise, I chose to go for sunset. But logically, if I am able to see the sunrise from my balcony, it simply means I can't see the sunset from the same balcony ya?

So it ended up like this, shooting for the light's on as the sky goes dark.

Someday perhaps, there'll be a shoot for sunrise. That's if the sun rises early enough before I even go to bed. Otherwise, it's hardly possible!

Barcelona: The Best Trip Ever

2009-05-06T02:45:00.007+08:00

Finally I've returned from my one week long vacation in Barcelona, Rome, and Pisa. Among all, Barcelona really stands out for its very Mediterranean atmosphere.

This post is hence dedicated for Barcelona only, while pictures for Rome and Pisa will be left out for the time being.

If you climb right to the top of the Palace, you'll reach a platform where the following pictures are framed.

Designed by Gaudi, the world's longest bench is decorated with colored pebbles situated in Park Guell. Sitting there, you have a view of a part of Barcelona's skyline.

Finally, I would just like to highlight that one of Barcelona's Attraction, would be Sagrada Familia in the picture below. If you haven't notice yet, it is not even complete, but yes, you still need to pay to go in. How ridiculous it is I'd say.

And that colorful dildo up there, is yet another attraction ~~erected~~ right in the middle of Barcelona- the magnificent Torre Agbar.

And yes, it glows in the dark!

My New Workspace

2009-04-25T01:40:00.004+08:00

Now I really feel as if I'm working in some really high tech NASA governmental operating offices. Because this is what my desk looked like this morning. And it will stay like that for some time, I suppose.

Haha.. okay I admit that I don't really need that many screens running. But the thing is that one of my colleagues left the office few weeks back. And I conveniently take over his desk which I like a lot since it's at the corner which means less people will walk by, less noise, less distractions.

And so there is the first dekstop mounted there which I have to live with.

Then, the lappie in the middle is my work-laptop, where I've been working with since day 1, I cant just throw it aside yeah?

And lastly, the faithfully loyal lappie of mine who mysteriously crashed 3 months back when I landed in Paris. And it resurrected just few days ago giving me the liberty to play my mp3s, stay connected with gtalk n facebook, as well as draw rubbish on paint when I'm stress without the risk of being caught.

So.. there goes my new workspace. Not forgetting the ugly robot, and the cup of hot steaming coffee from the pantry.

A Reminder of Spring

2009-04-24T01:29:00.006+08:00

I spend another day at work today.

But this time around, it has nothing to do with robotics.

Rather..it's photography.

So how did all this started??

I went to the office at 12 noon, just to find out that my colleagues decided to throw a BBQ lunch party at the backyard.

And that is us at the backyard, BBQing away surrounded with ~~blooming~~ springing flowers, accompanied by the whispering wind and warm sunshine.

You see what I mean??

And there goes another day of spring..

Another Night

2009-04-22T21:54:00.005+08:00

For those of you who do not yet know, this is the when and where it happened!

I met some pro pick pocket last weekend when I was in Geneva at the Mont Blanc Bridge. A group of 6 arabs came up to me and started shovelling and pushing around. Next thing I know, I lost my wallet. So there goes my IC, driving license, credit cards, pictures, travelling privilege card and of course cash. Sigh..

Currently, everyone in the office is hiding behind their cubicle acting busy and here am I typing this. It's definitely in holiday mood now.

Half the office is empty, remaining only the few of us who need to finish up some piled high workload. Too bad I'm currently stuck with my work and there's no one to seek for help.

Europeans really have lots of holidays huh? They just had the end of winter holiday, and now it's beginning of spring holiday so they say. I wonder how many months of holidays do they have in a year.

Will be going on my one week holiday to Barcelona and Rome starting this Sunday. Hopefully it will be a smooth trip without any hassle like the last one.

This time around, I'm gonna wrap my handphone and cash in my boxers! Now you won't get a thing without touching my d**k! Good for you!

The Beginning of Spring

2009-04-21T19:58:00.021+08:00

Brings you not only budding flowers..

This is what appear on my glass panel door just beside my bed this morning when I woke up.

Not one..

But two..

And they are really BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG!! I mean, I don't even know if I should call them spiders? Or large mosquitos? Or dragon fly?

One Thing Missing

2009-04-21T03:39:00.016+08:00

A whole big box of these...

For only 1.50€.

Let's take a bite now!! Hmmmm..... Deliciooouuuuussss..

Deliiiiciii........ Wait!!

Something's missing!!!

Where's Mr.WHIPPED CREAM??

????

?????

???????

@#$%^^%$#@!@#@#$#@!!@#$#%

A Bloody Honest Synopsis By TGV

2009-04-18T18:05:00.013+08:00

I was checking out what's hitting malaysian screens lately, so I can download any if I see anything interesting. So I figured that since I only want to know movies screening in Malaysia, the best is to directly check out at the cinema's webpage for new release.

So I went into TGV and happily check on the movies. Then I saw this movie Passengers and when I was checking out it's synopsis, this is what I get.

I was half way eating while reading this, didn't notice anything when you started reading the 1st part, then the sudden twist appears and I nearly choked to death!

And and... The last line is a classic, "credits to Anne Hathaway for looking pretty... but she could have been better off picking up a different movie." I'm like ~~WTF~~???

WAKAKAKAKA!!!!!!!!!

I mean is this for real??? TGV inserting such direct condemnation of a movie in its official webpage when they are actually selling the movie???

Wow!! This level of honesty is really...... MIND BOGGLING!!!

Or... maybe it's just the data entry office boy who's typing in synopsis for TGV got bored with his job, and started getting creative by adding in his own opinion for god's sake.

But again, it's still bloody HILARIOUS!! WAKAKAKA!!!

Just doing my time

2009-04-17T05:39:00.010+08:00

When I was in UTP, I often feel that i'm just doing my time there, like those prisoners would often say that they just wanna finish their time without causing any trouble.

Constantly reminding myself that it wouldn't be long, I'll grad in 5 years time. Get a good job in some big corporations, and work in some exotic country. That's the master plan.

But now, I'm half a globe away from home, working in Europe. For three months now. ~~Fucking~~ EUROPE man. And I still feel exactly the same. Just doing my time here.

And the best part is, you actually know when you are in this doing-my-time mode. It's when you start counting down your days left in this current phase before you move on to something else which you deem better. That's when you are actually just living by the days, hoping that days will pass by quickly enough so you would move on.

90 more days before i'm home that's what i keep in mind. Just doing my time huh.

Cause you will never finish your time in life, of course that wouldnt be the case if you're dead. Cause you'll finish your time in one phase and move on to starting a new timeline on the other phase, and its never ending.

SO much for the grass is greener on the other side. It's never greener, it's just a different type of grass maybe, but they are all the same ~~fucking~~ green everywhere.